13 Weeks and Counting

Today I am 13 weeks pregnant!
I don't even know where to begin with this post.
My last one wasn't the happiest one, I apologize.
I have so much going on now and so many different emotions running through me constantly that I don't even know where to begin!
I guess I could start with posting what I was most exited about :)
My First Belly Pictures!!


I'm not sure if you are able to tell Ive got a bump going on, but I know its there because 1. None of my pants are fitting the way they are supposed to 2. My very innie belly button is becoming an outie.

This whole baby bump thing has been hard for me to get used to because I at first just felt like I was starting to look chubby like "Is that girl gaining weight or is she pregnant" But then I really thought about it and this is the tiniest I'll be for the next nine months so I my as well embrace it, and I have a little angel in my belly that I knw is there so I should flaunt it (modestly lol)
Im so exited to find out what what we are having!!
This past weekend Erin and I went to Babies R Us and were oogling over all of the different baby things and I CANT WAIT TO START SHOPPING.

So we have picked out a couple different names and we are still looking (open for ideas) and figuring out what we like best but this is what we have so far...
Boy
Aiden
Trayton (Caleb doesn't like this one, I love it)
Malakhi/ Malachi

Girl
Eliora
Ava
Chloe/Chloie
Isabella
When I come up with more Ill be sure to share them :)

So lately I feel like I have been full of nothing but complaints and feeling down and I need to work on that because I have so many wonderful things in my life. Yes things are hard and complicated and take way longer to go through that we want them to BUT that's what makes us stronger and makes us appreciate the outcome we've been waiting for so much more. I don't think I'd make it through all of this with out prayer and faith. I know that it's not going to be the best all the time and I need to be better and making the worst the best it can be.
This morning I woke up and looked over and saw my beautiful looking husband sleeping right next to me and I felt such happiness and love for him. I'm so glad that I was blessed with such a wonderful man in my life to take of me and support me.

I never do this.

I have never ranted in a blog post before but I really want to just rant. It could be rambling and obnoxious so if you don't want to hear complaints or silly problems, stop reading now :)

First and foremost I HATE my husband working second shift. I hate being home alone at night without him and having to fall asleep without him. I don't like making dinner and then having to put it straight into the fridge (I cant eat a whole lot these days). Its hard him sleeping all say and me trying to sleep at night. This winter he will have to work second shift all the time, Idk what I will do.

I miss home. I miss having all my family so close by me and being able to go home whenever i feel like it. Its hard going through all these changes and having my family going through changes and not being able to be there for it all. My dad is doing better but there is still a lot that is going on and I wish I could be there. My sister is going to graduate this year and I'm really hoping I can make It there for that special day. I really miss all my dear friends that I was able to always have by my side.

I really should not complain I do have a good life and a wonderful husband I guess sometimes change BIG change is harder than I expected it to be...

We are planning on moving to Grand Rapids at the end of September and I'm really praying I will be able to find a job by the time we get there because I will be showing by then and who Is going to hire a big ol prego lady? If I cant find a job Idk how we will manage with a new baby. I guess I'm just concerned and I really hope everything will work out okay...

Don't get me wrong I love everything about my new life and my new husband, I just have to remember how to stay strong and get through hard times, Ive done it before.

Randomosity :)

HipHipHorray!!! Today Caleb and I have been married 1 month! It doesn't seem like much but it's been a crazy wonderful blessed month :) All I can say is I love love love love my husband, I love saying husband to be honest.

There hasn't been to many exiting things going on besides the never ending nausea, new found migraines, acne I haven't had since High School, and back to the fatigue, and ALWAYS having to pee!! I go to bed by like 10 latest and am still exhausted by the end of the day. I feel bad for poor Caleb I probably complain quite a bit about all these little aches and pains, when really I'm the pain.

SO Im not going to lie every time I walk into Target or WalMart and 'somehow' immediately spot the baby section I get goosebumps and butterflies sometimes even tear up. I find myself wandering around looking for things to touch and googly at. Well the other night we were all out for Calebs Birthday (Which was a success) and ended up at WalMart, you know what that means... BAAAMM baby section. Well I fell in love with this onsie that can obviously be a girl or boys and had to have it so Calebs best friend bought it and I loooveee it :)


Im sure its the same for all first timers but all the weird aches and pains or odd transformations that seem to occur really freak me out sometimes and makes me wonder "Is this normal?" Welll I purchased a lovely pregnancy saver... What to Expect When Your Expecting :) It may seem silly but this book is MAGIC!! It has anything and every thing you can think of from toe cramps to the frequency of baby kicks you should feel later in pregnancy. My favorite part of the book is how it explains every detail of your pregnancy by weeks :) So every week we get to learn how big our peanut is, how peanut is developing, what Ill be feeling like... It really is a huge savior! (Ill be 11 weeks tomorrow!!)

This weekend we also finished out puzzle! Id have to say Im pretty sure Calebs proud of it considering it's still sitting on the kitchen table. Im not really sure what were going to do with it so it'll sit there till we get an apartment.

Its a... BABY! :)

We have recently found out that... WE ARE PREGNANT :) I want to jump up and down and squeal obnoxiously that I'M PREGNANT I'M PREGNANT I'M PREGNANT! I cant explain more how exited we are about this. We decided to wait and tell everyone till now to make sure that everything went well this time and there weren't any complications again. I went to the doctor yesterday to go over ultra sounds and listen to the little heart beat. Our doctor said that our little peanut looks healthy and has a strong heart beat (We got to hear it and it was beautiful) At the end of our appointment after finding out everything was well she said she was 100% confident in this pregnancy and we could tell everyone we wanted to! Ive been really scared of having another miscarriage and so the last couple weeks have been a little more stressful. I'm so happy to know that I have a healthy perfect little baby in my tummy. I'm dying to have a little princess but Caleb is more than convinced it's a boy (I think hes crazzzy). I cant remember a time being this happy about something :)



So as I don't have time for a journal I decided Ill blog a lot of the baby adventures along with our married ones :)
Lately....
The smell of ham makes me gag (So making Calebs lunch when I wake up is NOT fun)
I love eating Ramen, Strawberry buttered toast, Cosmic brownies, yougurt, Cooler ranch doritoes, pineapples, and pizza. Really healthy huh? Well no... but it's what I can keep down.
My clothes are starting to not fit me anymore :(
I drive my husband crazy with all my crazy hormones.
When ever I see baby clothes or babies in general I get all goo goo eyed and start to tear up and Caleb has to drag me away before I start blubbering in public :)
(Ive all ready bought a onsie.)
I have been having crazy dreams that are always weirder than weird.
I ALWAYS have to pee, it never fails to wake me at least once!
I really miss my Dad, Mom, Papa, and siblings. (Sometimes AZ in general)
Im happy and I love my husband.
Till next time :)

The newest married fad.

So obviously when your married and working, being a grown up we don't have as much money to go out and do crazy things all the time like we used to which we are both fine with because we've come up with new activities where we still have fun :) Our newest thing is our 1000 piece magical glow in the dark puzzle that we got from wally world. I know what your thinking, a puzzle really? But this has become almost serious for us. Caleb has made into a competition where he hoots and hollers loudly when hes found a piece and repeatedly says "OH OH OH Im winning Talia Im WIIINNNIINNNGGG"(Hes even done a fist pump, dont tell him I told you) Ive had the urge a few time to hide the pieces and be WINNNIINNNG to :) Little does he know Im a fabulous puzzle do-er.