The happy things in life.

There have been things lately that have filled me with a joy not replaceable. I have been thinking and doing a lot lately and one of the things that i realize make me happy are the little things, i never really noticed before that the little things are really the biggest.. I've become humbled this past month living with the Walters. I'm eternally grateful for them taking me a crazy 19 year old with not the slightest grip on life into their home and loving me unconditionally as they always have. I now have a death grip on life and quite a few battle scars to show for it which makes me even more blessed. I love Tiffany like a mom for the way she gracefully helped put me back together and show me that life is beautiful and we were not placed on this earth to be unhappy but to love our life and bless others in the process all while smiling. Today Cedrick picked little flowers from the front yard and came up to me and gave me one and said "i luff you Telia" It goes to show the love that Tiff gives to her children and everyone around her is contagious and i'm so glad i've caught it.
On the Trek we experienced a "Womens Pull" and we had to pull or carts with just the sisters in our family while our Pa and brothers were on the hill watching us. It was probably one of the hardest things i have ever been asked to do. A little more than half way up the mountain after we had given all we could were almost to the point of complete defeat when angels came and starting pushing our cart for us and they helped us till we were back to where we could do it on our own. After that experience i thought to myself i wish i could have angels like that all the time and now i know that I DO. There are 5 girls in my life that i would not be able to make it with out and i know this to be true that Heavenly Father gave them to me because he knew i would need them and they love me unconditionally no matter my flaws. These beautiful girls are what keep me together and help me stay on the straight and narrow path. The best part of it all is that they have been there all along no matter the condition of my spirit whether it strong or in pieces and for that i'm forever yours. Each of these girls has shown me different and wonderful ways to love my self others and become selflessly engaged in the gospel. I dont think you will all ever know the full graditude in which i have for you and i hop you know you all have a special place in my heart irreplaceable. I love you Emilee ruth, Tiffany, Mae, Elise, and Simone.

Its been a long while.

Its been sooo long since i have written in my blog buuuut i figured its a good way to keep my mind sane so i'm going to start writing again :]

It was interesting to reread all of my old entries because i feel like i've grown quite a bit since then. Its seems as if i've been around the world and back since i've recorded anything of true happiness or good use!

This summer has been crazy with everything thats gone on. I went to Michigan last month for vacation to sorta clear my head and regain all of my thoughts to decide where i need to be and what i want from this life and i made a few choices. By the middle of next month i will be moving out there for a year or so. I'm a little scared but more exited than anything, i'm exited to have a fresh new start and be able to meet new people go to a new ward and just sort of start my life fresh.

I've learned maaany life lessons lately some of them hard but all of them needed. I have come to realize now more than i ever have how important the Gospel is to have in our lives and all the blessings and joy that comes from staying close to the Lord. I cant fit all the things i've learned lately in this entry but i will continue to update and write the things i find important :)

New year New goals New me :)

SO its been freaking forever since i wrote on my blog and that saddens me. ALot has happened in the last couple months and in all honesty I'm glad to say 2009 is OVER! I'm exited to be able to have this fresh start where i can do anything and accomplish it as well. I want to go back to school so i can eventually open a cake business. I'm going to work full time again and I'm going to start going back to church.I have come to realise the most important things in life are the things that stick around even when you don't. I want to say sorry and i also want to say i love you, I'm sure you know who you are and i think you amazing and i dont want to go another day with out you because your my other half my best friend and my sister:)Anotheroneof my goals is to write on my blog more often and be better at it ;)

This is how it is

I have sadly enough lost Internet connection ;/ i have moved into my first apartment (in the ghetto) i really like my roommate Kara shes a sweetie. A lot has happened since i last posted. I just got back from Indiana 2 hours ago because my Great Grandpa died Halloween night. Going on this trip was hard because i was alone and the last funeral i attended was my mom's. This trip was heartbreaking yes but also a huge testimony builder for me because i know that families can be together forever and that ill be with my mom grandpa and baby TJ again someday if i do what I'm supposed to in this life, its just doing whats right that's the hard part. This past year has been the hardest with losing my mom and Bryan but i have gained a lot to and I'm trying to see it from that point of i have gained a lot view i truly am. I'm going to do everything i can to move on and do whats best for me because I've never done what best for me. I have a few people that i owe it all to and i want you to know that i loved you more than i could ever imagine and i know that we'll be best friends for eternity. Thanks to everyone who's put up with me while Ive been down here at rock bottom and I'm pulling myself up I'm going to be me again guys i promise.

Strength isnt something you have, its something you find.

This last week i went on the Pioneer trek for my stake and i must admit its the hardest thing I've done emotionally physically and spiritually in the longest time. I was tested and trialed a few times and i now see why the Lord does the things he does.I wasn't going to go on this trek for a few reasons I'm sure your all aware,but I'm eternally great full for the pain i felt. I feel stronger and more able to do things I'm supposed to do right now. The women's pull was the hardest thing for me to do especially after i hurt my knee but i know for a fact that i can do hard things. I was proud of myself for doing this by myself i didn't need the emotional support from the person i thought i did. I made it to the top of the hill alone. I love the Lord and the support he gives me even when i fall short or am undeserving. This weekend i became more great full for priesthood blessings and gained a deeper knowledge of the gospel.I love my 3 fountain girls so much they really helped me keep my chin up during this trek.

The Prettiest Mess You've Ever Seen

I did what i thought was "best" and now, i feel my worst. Ill admit i ha vent been Miss sunshiny at all lately but I'm now at my ultimate low. I guess it can only look up from here. I think its the little things ill miss. But i was told this was it, this is what would save me and i REALLLY need to be saved ;( From now on i want to be happy, ill try my hardest.I'm counting on the Lord this time because everything else has failed, and to be honest he's who i should have turned to first. Do not get wrong i have my best friend and couple others but right now i think he's the one who's going to turn this around.

Cali baby (:

So this last weekend i want to Cali with the infamous Walters family (yes i missed conference) and i had a wonderful time. As you all know i had never been there before so i had alot of fun. We went to sea world and the beach and the San Diego temple. It was so-oo beautiful its the only temple I've ever seen besides the mesa one so i was in complete shock and awe.I did alot of thinking on this trip and i don't have everything figured out but i think i know what i want... Ive been thinking about dropping out of school i know it sounds pathetic but I'm not sure i can handle it right now and its college i can always start again whenever i want. Idk though i don't want my dad to think I'm a failure. Other than that i don't have much news in the life of Talia other than i have ALOT of conference to catch up on (: TA TA until next timeee.